Thursday, January 26, 2006
Better definitionI have found a better definition,
a definition of myself.
I am starting to know myself more,
such that how i grow with time.
There are many ways to look at it,
all are contridicting.
encouraging ones like,
"Fight for what you want,
so as not to regret."
"Strike when the iron is hot."
"At least you have tried your best."
while some are,
"Prevention is better than cure."
"If you know the result,
then why did you do it."
"Think before you leap."
Based on the 9pm show,
i concluded that pessimistic ones are true.
Knowing that chunchun love lance,
lance still neglect her.
Knowing that ruyi is her sis,
ruqing stole her bf.
If you know it,
why do you have to do it?
I don't like fighting a battle w/o confidence,
i'd rather win confidently.
If i know the result of it will be a defeat,
i shouldnt get into it.
But if i have to,
i will prepare myself for the worst.
If i know it will be a glorious one,
i will prepare myself fully armoured.
But if i miscalculated the results,
i will continue to fight confidently.
Poly has made great changes to me,
it has made me more vunerable.
I don't like the feeling of being vunerable,
i will protect myself with what i have.
I have less friends than others,
cuz i'm always protective.
We wouldnt know when people strike,
we will just have to take precautions.
As i grow,
i'm learning to take precautions and interact.
I am not a person who is very committed,
i prefer freedom.
Someone wants me to know her daughter,
my granny protected me from incoming risk.
I asked my granny,
"if i want to stay single how?"
She replied,
"Marry is a must,
but must be careful."
I'm still wondering why must people marry?
If i can choose,
i rather stay single and admire loving couples silently.
That's about it so far,
nitez.
