Just Dance.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

1st month 3rd day of lunar calendar
Today was the day for cross-visiting,
first was my house, tdx's then lydia's.
It was a really enjoyable day,
wished there were more people.
I found a sense of closeness,
very comfortable to be with.
If every year was like this,
it would be very fun.

We eat alot too,
so much nice food!
I believe if they were to stay 1 week,
sure put on alot weight.
Today we had egg competition,
and i won.
"master" is what she calls me,
"tu di" is what i call her.
But don't take it too seriously,
it's jus for fun only.

I found out i am very stupid,
cannot guess their mind games.
Must eat more ginseng liao,
so that can think better lol.
But at least now we have more games,
more people know how to play bridge.

I cant gather my thoughts yet,
too much fun for today.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Better definition
I have found a better definition,
a definition of myself.
I am starting to know myself more,
such that how i grow with time.
There are many ways to look at it,
all are contridicting.

encouraging ones like,

"Fight for what you want,
so as not to regret."
"Strike when the iron is hot."
"At least you have tried your best."

while some are,

"Prevention is better than cure."
"If you know the result,
then why did you do it."
"Think before you leap."

Based on the 9pm show,
i concluded that pessimistic ones are true.
Knowing that chunchun love lance,
lance still neglect her.
Knowing that ruyi is her sis,
ruqing stole her bf.
If you know it,
why do you have to do it?

I don't like fighting a battle w/o confidence,
i'd rather win confidently.
If i know the result of it will be a defeat,
i shouldnt get into it.
But if i have to,
i will prepare myself for the worst.

If i know it will be a glorious one,
i will prepare myself fully armoured.
But if i miscalculated the results,
i will continue to fight confidently.

Poly has made great changes to me,
it has made me more vunerable.
I don't like the feeling of being vunerable,
i will protect myself with what i have.
I have less friends than others,
cuz i'm always protective.
We wouldnt know when people strike,
we will just have to take precautions.
As i grow,
i'm learning to take precautions and interact.

I am not a person who is very committed,
i prefer freedom.
Someone wants me to know her daughter,
my granny protected me from incoming risk.

I asked my granny,
"if i want to stay single how?"
She replied,
"Marry is a must,
but must be careful."

I'm still wondering why must people marry?
If i can choose,
i rather stay single and admire loving couples silently.
That's about it so far,
nitez.

Friday, January 20, 2006

Fate
I always wonder,
what is fate.
Fate can brighten someone's day
fate can bring thick dark clouds too.
Fate can bring smiles,
fate can bring sulky faces too.
Fate can be so good,
and yet so bad.
If i am to choose,
i would rather not be in r/s anymore.

Why would i want to get into one,
when i know it can hurt.
Why would i want to get into one,
when i know it leaves scars.
Why would i want to get into one,
when i know i'm not suitable for it.
Why would i want to get into one,
when i know i cant be a bright sun of anyone.
Why would i want to get into one,
when i know i have to fulfil my other dreams.
Why would i want to get into one,
when i know the negative side of it.

Although it will bring happiness,
but good things dont last.
Although there will be good memories,
they will be faded with time.
Although there are so many good thing of it,
but once it fails its worst than death.

Leaving my fate in god's hands.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Resist
Resisting is a form of rebel,
it can also be prevention.

Women can be great,
women can be bad.
Woman can be nice,
women can be nasty.
Women are the kindest,
women are also the most vicious.
Women are sweet,
women are a such a pain.

Men can be strong,
men can be weak.
Men can resist,
men can fall off.
Men can be kind,
men can be evil.
Men can be tamed,
men can be lustful.

If resistance don't play a part,
both men and women are at risk.

When a woman says sth,
she dont mean what she said.
When a woman says it's nice,
she meant it isnt nice.
When a woman says she wants sth,
she meant she doesnt wants it.

Men are more straight forward type,
and seldom beat abt the bush.
When a man heard that she said it's nice,
he would give more of it to her.
When a man heard that she wants sth,
he would try his best to provide for her.

I feel so insecure,
if only i had been able to read her mind.
I feel being cheated,
if only she had meant what she said.
Women are so much different from men,
they are so extreme.
Being so damn nice,
yet being so hypocrite.
Resist is what i have learnt,
i paid a huge price for this lesson.
A wise person once said,
"everyone has a history.".
Let bygones be bygones,
and learn to be careful in the future.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

if only i could turn back time
I wished i could turn back time,
i had many things i did that i regretted.
Not just regret,
but deeply regret.
I'm starting to think,
killing the brain cells inside me.
Why did i have to do that?
Why did i not do that?
Why am i like this?
Why why and more whys.
If i turn back time,
i hope to be in primary 6 again.
From there,
i will cherish every moment.
I was too childish,
i was too anti-social.
If i had been more matured,
if i had been more friendly.
Things couldnt be the same again,
they will be much better.
If i knew i was in the wrong,
why didnt i turn back and apologise?
If i was just abit more patient,
i wouldnt be in so much stress.

A wise man once told me.
"In life, we all make mistakes.
it is either minor mistakes or major mistakes."

I feel that i had committed a major one,
one that i can avoid.
But now i have to live with it,
live with it as a history.
History brings sad memories,
history brings shame.
History brings precautions to the future,
history brings glory.
I had nothing,
no good values in me,
no good characters,
no good history,
no good results,
what am i?
I'm just a stupid guy who commits stupid mistakes!
Human reaction will be the same,
i will be looking at those faces with those stares.
I once asked my mum,
Why was i born?
Why was i born?
Why was i born?
I really wished it wasnt me,
i feeling very upset.
I want to turn back time,
i want to change my history.
I know its impossible to do so,
I will use my achievements to cover my history.